Dear Ex Lover,

I often wondered what I’d say or write to her when finally given the chance to. Now I have a chance to let you know.. To let you know how much I hate you ….how much I loved you and how much I hate the fact i still loved you…I have the chance to tell you anything I want to, and quiet frankly, all I want to do is stop texting, and pray for you…

Dear Ex Lover

I really don’t want to go on and on about the past, so I’ll keep this short.

You hurt me. I gave you everything. I loved you madly. And you hurt me. You made me believe that you were in love with me. You sold me a dream, and I willingly bought it. I cried every single night after we broke up, drowned myself in alcohol and tears, hoping that maybe the answer to “why did she leave me” would be found at the bottom of the bottles. I was shattered.

I tried to move on. Believe me, I did, but the memory of you haunted me. It haunted everything I did. How dare you? How dare you walk into my life, change everything; my plans, my goals, my life, and then walk out as if you were never even there? I hate you for that.

Wait. That’s a lie. Probably the first lie I’ve EVER told you. See, unlike you, its hard for me to lie to someone I care about. Yes. I still care. I don’t hate yyou. I could never hate you.

I’m really sorry. For everything. I’m sorry I fell so hard for you.

I hope you’re taking care of yourself. I’ll continue to pray for you just as hard as I did the very first day I told you I love you. You must know that God has a way of showing us who God is. I wish you no harm, I actually have no energy left in me to do that. I wish you all the love and happiness in the world, I’m just saying, a time will come where God will show you exactly who He is. Goodluck.

I’ll never know why you left me, I’ll never know why you walked away from such a good thing, I’ll never even know why you left without a word, but one thing I do know is this: Nobody will EVER love you the way I did. Nobody will even come close. But I hope she tries her best, and I hope her best is enough for you.

I’m leaving you in 2013….You’re a part of a past I’m choosing never to revisit.

Thank you. You taught me a lot.

Love forever & always